It’s been a long time I haven’t written. I’ve been trying to
motivate myself to write but I always end up doing something else. I guess you
can call that procrastination. Everyone is in trouble of procrastinating, or at
least I am. I’ve been trying my best not to. But that effort usually leaves me
empty handed. One of the reasons that it I do end up like that is that I am
weak that’s for sure. And that I cannot
do things alone, not without God, or at least that’s what I’ve experienced. You
see, I’ve been in 10th grade for 2 years because of procrastinating.
I’m ashamed to admit that. Haha. I could find every reason to not finish my
studies, and I did find every reason until I realised I’m not moving forward or
making any progress. And that is not good. One of those reasons I found is that
I’m scared to finish my studies because if I do I won’t have anything to do. It
turns out after I made up my mind and finished my studies, which turned out to
be fun learning about phsyical science and watching myself conquer the much
dreaded geometry, I found out that there were lots of things I could do. A
couple of those things was make a brochure, a presentation, a prayer card, and
a newsletter for my Mom. And I thought I was useless before. Now, I’m actually
doing something worthwhile and important and all those other stuff you do that
makes you feel appreciated and needed. Of course, there were those times that I
thought why am I doing this, this isn’t my job, I’m just a kid! I was just
again making an excuse. I mean, what is it with humans that we make excuse
after excuse to escape from things we have to do to move forward and actually
be in a better state? I knew I was capable of doing that stuff, I was just in
denial. God made me realise that by doing what I do I’m making a difference,
I’m not just being a nuisance, I am helping the society, or at least helping my
mother in which by another meaning helping the society too. ;-) So, I am better by what I do, by doing what I
should do, by taking responsibility; and for me and my family especially, by
doing what I do I am having faith in God that He will provide for us by
touching people through the brochures, newsletter, prayer cards, and
presentations I make. Now, every time I lose my patience and start
procrastinating a verse that always ‘screams’ in my mind is that verse I can’t
quite remember the book and the exact chapters and verse but it says something
like this, “in everything you do, do it for Christ.” Something like that. And
it puts me in a perspective that I can’t do a job half-done. You know what they
say, a job half-done is a job not done at all. So, I don’t get tempted to do a
sloppy job because I’m doing it for Christ. I mean, who wants to do a sloppy
job for the Saviour of the world? Nobody. At least not me. Now, It is making me
think how beautiful it is that people could see Christ in you just by fighting
yourself, your sinful being on earth. I do make mistakes, and still sin all the
time, sometimes without meaning to. I still procrastinate and get lazy to take
a bath sometimes. ;-) But hygiene is hygiene and you can’t make an exception in
being unhygienic just because I’m lazy(this is my little too honest analogy. Haha).
But, I really should learn, we really should learn to not procrastinate every
time with little things. As my Dad would say, make it a habit and a lifestyle
and you won’t live without it…and I won’t live without unprocrastinating.
So, I say to thee,
my soul, procrastinate not for the good
of your being!
